Love...

I just was talking to a friend of mine about Love. It can be such an awesome word or such a shitty word if you're not getting it...and even shittier if you should be getting it and aren't. And yes readers...I said shitty! Anyhow, she said something that really got me thinking. "What ever happened to old fashion love? Ya know the kind that didnt involve facebook, myspace, text messages, emails, IM." She told me a story of a friend of hers...Her parents were out of town somewhere and the wife asked her husband to go and grab her shoes from the car. The daughter walked into the room and heard a blow drier going, it was her dad blow drying his wifes shoes. The daughter asked what he was doing. He said that her shoes were cold from being in the car so he wanted to warm them up for her. The daughter just laughed and told her dad that he is wooped. He said that he just really loves her and didn't want her to have cold feet. Now THAT's old fashioned love. Totally selfless and thoughtful. Who in the world do you know that would do that for their spouse? Only the luckiest girl in the world:) Its not that we want someone to actually blow dry our shoes is it? No...but the little things that your loved one just knows that would bring you hapiness...and they do it for you.

I've thought lately alot about what I am looking for and want from the person that I choose to be with. That person will make my hapiness a priority and vise vera. I have had that before in a relationship and it was what made us great. I think that simply making someone's hapiness a priority in your life, helps you steer away from the natural tendency of being selfish and only wanting what makes you happy. Ya know...we all want that out of our spouse, significant others, etc...but are we willing to put that same effort into them as well? Thats the golden question I think. Just like the golden rule...do unto others blah blah... but the golden question...are you willing to do unto others blah blah?

We live in such hard times where everyone is becoming so selfish and self serving. If it doesn't benefit me, why should I do it? It makes it tough to find someone that will just love you and ONLY you. We have so many distractions that entice us or throw us off from giving to the person that we love the most and the best parts of us.

I have such admiration and respect for little old couples that have made it work for years and years on end. I was driving back from Vegas a while back and drove past a car that had 2 bumper stickers on it. On the left bumper it said, "I love my wife" and the right bumper said, "I love my husband". As we approached the car we looked over and it was a little old man and lady in the front. It was so touching and so cute! I can only hope to find that kind of love that will last and grow old with me...through all the ups and downs, the wrinkles and age spots (all of which I am planning on combating with my esthetics career!)

I am excited for the day that I get to be so in love and be loved in return that I get to declare my love for my little old husband on a bumper sticker of my car for all to see.

My Monday Trail Run

The great news is that I have finally started to take my training seriously...just 3 weeks before my triathlon:) HA! That's the way I roll I guess.

This Monday I went on a fabulous very healing and therapeutic trail run. I haven't done a ton of trail running at all...but I got my fancy new shoes that I love with all my heart so I figured I'd start being one with nature and break those bad boys in. I got about half way and just decided to stop and take it all in for a few. It was SO quiet and beautiful. I havent been in a place that quiet for a long time. I decided to just chill for a moment on a rock...it was great:) I felt SO peaceful and comfortable. I seriously didn't want to leave that spot, and not just because I didn't want to run back either:) It was actually pretty emotional for me. It was a place that I could just let it out and have a mini break down without having to immediately pull it together for the kids sake or hiding it from someone. I could just let it out and not give a crap...cuz no one was there to judge, question, mock, console, bug, etc. I could just freaking BE! The mountains looked exceptionally awesome that day too. The tops were unbelievably white with really crisp looking snow up against a perfectly blue sky. I feel like I just described a dessert at cheesecake factory or something:) Anyway, definitely one of my favorite ways to see the mountains.

My run down was AMAZING! I felt SO great. I felt so fresh, relieved, and surprisingly fast:) I know...surprising HA! Great experience I had to write about.

Just Stuff...

Blogging Amy is back. So my goal for now is to get it all out through words...oh yea and running...since I am very under trained lately and developing a little ring around the middle. So the bottom line and the reason I started blogging today of all days is this....I am ready to start my life all over again. I am hitting the reset button and saying...OK Perez...lets do this the right way!

So a little update of where I am in life...things have been good lately. My kids are happy and fun as ever. Lucy and Zoe are squealing like little piglets as we speak. Kai is living with Kerry in Oregon. A topic I will talk about in a separate post down the road...but for the sake of Kai and his happiness it is a good thing...and thats all that matters:)

I am excited about my life and what is in store for me. I am learning alot everyday about myself and the people that I have in my life. I am learning of how I want to be treated by those around me. I am learning to stand up for what I want and need in life again. I was pretty good about that a while back, but lost my gusto I guess. I'm going to actually start dating...nerve racking, but should be an interesting experience:) I'm learning to love unconditionally. A friend recently told me that to love unconditionally means to have no judgements or expectations when you give love. Love that! So basically to sum it all up...I'm in "re-evaluate what the hell I've been doing for the past 2 years" mode.

I'm in esthetics school this year. I took a little break to catch my breath and train...well I've caught my breath at least:) I will be going back in a few weeks. I am very excited to get going on my esthetics career one day! I absolutely love the work and it is exactly what I have wanted to do for a very long time.

Now for the update that I've been putting off. My training this year. Now, prior to saying anything I have to say, this is something that I absolutely LOVE to do. It is one of, if not my most favorite things to do. Although I am STILL not fast (one day I tell ya) it still brings me so much satisfaction and happiness! Last June I registered for the Irongirl Womens Tri in Las Vegas...well the time has come for me to do that race in a couple weeks. Should be interesting:) I am excited for it but truly under trained.
I also have the women of steel tri in May and will most likely do Salem in May. That is 3 tris in may...what the? I did the Provo city half in April...a couple weeks ago and ran it in the exact same time that I ran my first one in 2 years ago. Ha! Somethings never change:) I was pretty lazy on that one...no walking but I certainly didnt push it. It was freezing! I have a few more little races here and there throughout the summer...but I am hopefully going to top it all off with the St George Marathon in October! Getting in will be the main obstacle:) Well until race day anyway! I've been going to spin class to beef up my biking ability since there has been so much snow and rain and cold. It is a GREAT day to ride today but I have flat tires and no pump. Geez! Excuses!

Well enough of that for now...just a little update on the little snippets of my life.

Life's good and I'm happy. I have great kids, a good job, healthy, and am learning so much everyday.